Time To Put The Feet Up

There are times I write things in this that revolve around myself and my day. I’m wary of making this whole thing just a series of pieces on me and my life, like I’m keeping a very public journal, just as I’m wary of writing about Boris Johnson and Donald Trump every day. Even Covid-19 became a subject I tired of at one point. Variety in life is what keeps us going, or at least it does me. Anyway my point is that I sometimes write about myself because I know I am human like the rest of us and maybe one person out there will read it and be able to relate to it. I assume that is reasonably common practise online but writing about ourselves believing the world revolves around us is equally common practice online. Saying that not everybody has to find something to write about every day and do so by squeezing that into a busy schedule.

Today though hasn’t been busy. I’ve really enjoyed myself. I have though spent large parts of the day procrastinating. Somehow despite having a lot of time today I’m still just squeezing this piece out with about half an hour to spare before I go to work. I have managed to spend the day writing emails and messaging people which is something I’ve struggled to get round to for weeks but even then, to take all day just feels ludicrous. How much procrastinating we do in a day is always hard to tell but considering I’ve had all day and spent large chunks of it not doing what I wanted I can only imagine I’ve allowed myself to become distracted repeatedly instead. Phones are terrible procrastinators. I’m still excited about football so I find myself distracted by what is going on on the transfer front. I’ve read a little. Eaten twice. Chatted with the people downstairs in the bakery. Done a little research on a future endeavour I’ve started working on. Actually that’s not procrastination, that is actually productive work but I don’t feel I did much thankfully. Where does the time go. I planned on doing some yoga and going for a run at one point but there’s no chance of that happening. I’m sure there are a few other things which could have been ticked off my ever increasing to-do list.

Ultimately though it is a lovely feeling to just sit back, do a few things which involved little real effort and spend the day relaxing. It hasn’t been possible for a while and despite complaining about my abilities as a master procrastinator I’m quite pleased I know how to embrace them from time to time. Nobody wants to be too efficient and active when they don’t really need to be, what a boring and sterile life it would become. That’s that then, procrastinators, you are not alone. You can embrace your natural abilities and not feel guilty about them in this puritanical world Martin Luther created and forced us to endure. Work will not set us free, idle minds do create great things. And I’ve still got another fifteen minutes before I need to work, time to put my feet up I say.

New Years Resolutions

Happy New Year, it’s another year and another decade. The imagery of 2020 alone should get people excited. I’m also a day late but I wanted to talk about something else yesterday and prefer doing things my own way anyway. I hope people are more excited about the prospect of a new year than the horror of a new year – are we excited to leave the grim realities of 2019 behind us or terrified of their continuation. It’s been a good year so far politically as Scott from Marketing has been berated and run out of town for his disdain for and inactivity helping victims of the bushfires in Australia. Still no link with or acknowledgment that climate change may be connected or even a real thing as his bosses in the mining industry instructed him. There was a great moment in the video where he tries to shake hands with a woman who refuses so he grabs her hand and shakes it as the cameras start snapping away. We live in a truly corrupt world. I’m looking forward to Boris from Events similarly being run out of town somewhere over here in the next six to twelve months.

My plan for today was to talk about New Year Resolutions but as you can see from above I’ve already digressed and used up half my word count in the process. I had a small rant the other day about this particular topic and while I stand by it, I also stand by the fact this is a grey area and many people find credible benefits from such actions. It’s just a shame there’s so many others out there inspiring vomit instead.

I suspect I will have four resolutions this year. I’m not sure if that is too many or not enough as this is my first time and a new experience. None of them are that ground breaking either but then I’m not unique and I imagine if you break down all resolutions they’re all roughly the same thing.

Firstly like everyone else who feels like shit after Christmas I’m going to get fit. I have been putting it off for a while as I’m still nursing an old jiu jitsu injury. Sounds heroic until I admit I hurt my shoulder doing a forward roll in the warm up of the one class I attended. I will go back to this and also do some yoga. I love telling people I am yoga teacher because I once did a month long training course in India but all that makes me is a cliche. It does mean I am capable of practising on my own though so have little excuse for not especially when I understand it’s benefits. It’s the mornings I struggle with but apparently that gets easier with practise. Perhaps I can use some of the discipline required to do this each day. I’m only thirty-four and feel sore, more than I should at this age.

This links in with resolution number two which is to sort my diet out. I was discussing with a cousin over Christmas about joint pains and she was suggesting that cutting gluten out has reduced these pains in people she knows. I’m not suggesting I’m going to dive into some kind of gluten intolerance hysteria but it does show how important diet can be for overall physical health. How energised we feel, physical recovery, overall health – diet plays a role in all of this, just as exercise does of course. There is no golden rule for all with diet, something people always seem to miss the point of, but it is important to discover what really works for us.

One thing that sometimes prevents me from making the most of my time is that like many people the world over I’m suffering from addictions. In regards diet, certainly consumption of sugar needs addressing but for resolution number three it is time I addressed the procrastinating opportunities social media and constant access to online nonsense through my phone has. In mornings I don’t often do yoga or get started properly with my day because I spend an hour checking out whats going on in the world of football – a soap opera for men – and I apologise for the gender stereotyping but it’s a stereotype for a reason. Phones allow for procrastination and we waste so much time in the day as a result. There have been times in the past that I have intentionally gone the full day without using technology, and by evening I have run out of things to do I have been so busy. Like giving up smoking I will use the approach that when I immediately think of going online for no other reason than habit and addiction, I will give it five minutes and then if I still want to I will. It works with cigarettes, why not with other addictions too.

And finally I resolve to make something decent out of this blog. I doubt I’ve done over sixty posts yet which means I have over three hundred to go. It is daunting but also shows how much opportunity for learning and practise is still ahead. Doing this every day will always give opportunity for fluff days in which I have little time or am hungover but to make the most of it means I really need to be strict and mentally disciplined, try new things and push myself. Today I read an interesting article in the Guardian by Max Rushden on Bobby Madley, just as I had written yesterday about him. It was better researched and partly as a result better written. It was interesting to see and very useful to be able to compare the two, there are always opportunities to learn if we’re willing. I also want to step back to some of my original intentions such as answering philosophical questions from my Philosophy Now magazines which I haven’t even attempted, poetry or something similarly creative which I haven’t even contemplated and I just thought yesterday that maybe I should try a book review, so theres one of those coming when I finish my current book on how to utilise fear. These things are not always possible when limiting yourself to a small word count of four to five hundred, and while that has it’s benefits there is always scope for flexibility. Seeing as this piece is over one thousand words, and the only one over six hundred so far I am clearly happy to break my own rules.

It is clear to say that there was nothing really groundbreaking in any of my resolutions, but then there never are with these kinds of things. I also had to rush through them without any real details but it gives you the gist and the point as previously mentioned is to allow people the opportunity to realise there are many others out there struggling with the same things. Hopefully to know we are not alone gives a certain strength of resolve. I also just realised that resolutions means to find new solutions and resolve to find new ways to solve – in this case how we approach and live our lives. We are forever attempting to solve the riddle of life – these new solutions for a new year.

Discipline

What an interesting concept discipline is. Some of us, such as myself, have spent our entire lives without it and avoiding it too, or at least avoiding the harder elements of a disciplined life. Certain things such as having fun, partying, going cool places, having interesting conversations – you get the point – have been embraced with the most intense of disciplined behaviour. The discipline however that has seemingly lacked existence is the one which has involved effort like concentrating at school, studying at university, exercising at always, writing this post today. And it may still be today in a way as the day is not over but it is after midnight, although not everywhere, there will never now be an indexed post for Saturday 16th November. There will however be two on Sunday 17th and who gives a shit really because that is fine. While there may not have been a written rule on Day One, there was always an unwritten one in my mind, but again who really gives a shit. This is a process, and processes are long and full of fuck ups on the way. It is just unfortunate that the first one occurred on the second day. 

It is also a shame to be writing this so late at night because in truth I had been looking forward to it all day and was genuinely busy for a large proportion of the day. Not all the day though and that is the thing, discipline isn’t just about being hard working and full of will power, it’s about recognising the best time to complete a task and the flexibility to take the opportunity whenever it arises. There is no specific moment to suggest, more that as long as you’re not genuinely doing something else, the moment the thought comes to mind is the best moment, the moment you think is the moment to act. Perhaps that’s the secret to these psychopaths who just seem to be doing things nonstop, those who do not have the ability to think ‘fuck it I’ll do it later‘.

In that case I’ll flip it on it’s head, how utterly blessed I am to not feel the need to constantly act and respond to life’s many little supposed necessities. How people must be so jealous of my ability to sit down, drink some tea and put it off until later. Now that is some serious discipline.