It is amazing the fear we have about writing or expressing things that may be disagreeable. I have been trying now to write up an idea I had today which if I stood by it as a belief could be construed as patronising, elitist and morally skewing in the direction of disagreeable. Ultimately it is half baked and I suspect I don’t necessarily agree with it, however I found myself unable to write it up on here. What I must work out then is why, because if it is simply down to a fear of being scorned and rejected by my peers well that says either more about the failings of my peers, the change in direction of my moral compass or about how I deal with the reality of rejection. While I don’t necessarily think my moral compass is changing I do believe it is evolving, it still retains the foundations I have learnt, but I hope I can say it is growing up and becoming more refined. Like a pendulum though we can go too far as we discover the limits to certain ideas or ways of existing. Perhaps that’s what this is. The other rationale for why I am unwilling to write up a half baked idea that may be disagreeable is that I just don’t agree with it and am unwilling to write up something which I disagree with. However seeing as it is half baked, perhaps one way to bake it is to help my own understanding by writing it up.
Full disclaimer I do not necessarily believe this. But I admit, I did think it. I am human. I just seem to be breaking some unspoken rule about expressing things which we know should not be expressed.
The populace are like children. Some have the ability of a toddler to think constructively, some like a twelve year old who can think for themselves but doesn’t fully understand although is learning to push the boundaries to see what they can get away with and some like teenagers who can think for themselves and are fighting for their place in society but are stuck in that grey realm between childhood and adulthood while being neither, behaving like both and invariable never being treated how they want to and should be. Some people have access to great education while some no education. Neither makes you think but having no education does not help in your ability to form a fully thought out well constructed argument about who you should vote for. The reality is some people don’t know what the fuck they’re talking about yet they have the same voting rights as say a university politics professor. That is democracy and that is one of the beauties of it, if it were not like that then we would have some elitist technocracy which would probably never fully understand the people that it is telling how to live. It also means democracy is not perfect. Democracy is flawed, fundamentally I don’t know, but it is flawed. This does of course mean that I believe my opinion and vote is more important than the idiot reading the tabloid newspaper, and that makes me deeply uncomfortable because I’m not sure I do believe that, although maybe I do and just don’t want to admit it.
I have totally gone off on one. That was supposed to just be able the populace being a varying age of childhood. Perhaps that is just part of it and this then would most likely be a good moment to realise trying to cook half baked ideas on here is not the best idea. I suspect I will come back to this, as well as whether I believe myself to be more worthy than other people.
I am so confused and I feel so dirty. Am I in fact the ignorant one? Or am I finally just trying to see and understand aspects I may not always have been quite so keen to believe exist within me.
Observations and Misunderstandings 